Here is my personal experience and analysis. As I studied the Bible, when I first learned the truth, it was about worshipping Jehovah, my focus was on the Bible and learning about Jehovah. You are all familiar with the Org constantly repeating that a lot of people lose their fire after baptism, yes? This is why it happens. Once you get baptized, especially if you are male, they start pressuring you into becoming an MS then Elder. If you are not a certain age and have certain responsibilities, you are considered a spiritual failure, someone who needs encouragement. Now you have to start doing things the elders' way or the highway. You just want to impress the Elders at all times, I was an unbaptized publisher at 17, just converted from Catholicism, I specifically remember thinking to myself, that it was no longer about Jehovah, but the Elders. I tried very hard to change my thinking, but the men of the organization were constantly the center of my attention. I was even scolded by my Bible teacher because I didn't know the GB's names, he literally told me, it was a mistake on the Elders' part by making me a UP, I wasn't stumbled by this, it just comes to show you how most people think in the org. Eventually, the truth becomes a job. You can't grow a beard, you are scolded if you don't shave, you are scolded if you chew gum, you need x amount of hours, you can't laugh in service, study the newest edition of the awake and WT every month, every month you need to memorize a new speech for the house holder, and if you don't, you beat yourself because your are not spiritual like the rest of them; service, it probably became the most unenjoyable part while I still believed 1914, the meetings have become so dumbed down throughout the last few years, no matter how hard I try, I cannot focus in the meeting, the content is so uninteresting and it is always trying to make you feel bad about yourself, "do you do this, do you that?" Every little topic you cover is a moral lesson, you can't learn about prophecy without them conditioning you into submission, it is so tiresome. All this, piled up, made me question whether Jehovah even existed. I can't make the connection, but I became the most spiritual while I was inactive, away from the meetings, I was able to stop a lot of bad habits, my faith in his existence restored to 100%, I just don't know how to describe, exactly how the ORG makes you lose faith, but it does, I have seen many leave because of this. Honestly, if you are not doing everything just like they expect you to, you will probably throw yourself into a depression. I am pro disfellowshipping, so it is not like I despise authority, but the micromanagement is too much, if you find encouragement by doing your own thing at home, you should really consider it and start blocking a lot of the their ideas from entering your head. There is too much negative influence for me personally at the meeting, especially with the clicks that form, those were also stumbling blocks for me, seeing everyone at a party you were not invited to, every weekend, wondering why the Bros and Sis' don't want to invite you anywhere, I remember overhearing one person saying how they didn't want to be my friend, etc. like seriously? The hypocrisy amazes me, I was always an apologetic for the JWs, just like they teach you to be. But learning TTATT really opens your eyes. The drunkards, gossipers, cowards, superfine apostles will be judged by Jehovah. I have witnessed so many haughty people in the truth, about trivial matters, questioning one's intelligence because of their Instagram profile, accepting wrongdoing just because the person has an Elder label. They literally believe calling someone out who is in the wrong is a sin because they are Jehovah's appointed elder, we need to accept corruption because Jehovah appointed them. Accepting their authority is one thing, bringing to light their error is another. They have elevated everyone with the Elder title to Jehovah's level, questioning them is the same as questioning Jehovah, and if you do so they will beat you into submission with guilt. So, does anyone have any stories to share, have you noticed any changes in the truth throughout the years, people say there is a huge an emphasize on the GB compared to old times, true?